I feel lonely again
Give me your address and I’ll send you a postcard from my hometown
Born and raiseddddd in half the time I’ll be twice my age I was brought up I’m brighter days cause time is strange when your born and raised…
I said I’d get this when I pass a job interview. I went to an interview and thought sod it I’m going to get it anyway the interview went well. I got the job the next day :)
is love supposed to be hard?
what do you do if your mum moved in with some horrible person you don’t like and is a total ****** and you had to move in with them. You can’t take it no more so you move to your grandparents. Your Grandfather is an alcoholic with a very nasty side what you can’t take any longer so you have no choice but to go to the council and get a flat what you can’t even afford, but you don’t think of all that because you just want to get out of the situation. So you get a flat, move in, find out that the area you live in is so rough that you are scared to walk the shop, and when you do, you will hear people say “AY YOU COME HERE”. You are working on an apprenticeship bringing home £80 a week getting water bills, rent bills, council tax bills, TV Licence knocking on your door, paying £15 bus fairs every week, your boyfriend paying for your gas and electric plus the weekly food shop which you are so so grateful for and can’t thank him enough that sometimes you think he thinks you aren’t that grateful. Your boyfriend is helping you so much but the bills are piling up, you stop paying rent, he’s getting sick of your mood swings, he hates the area and hates the flat which causes arguments. You come home to find he’s moved his stuff out and left. Not me, but the flat. Although-he was thinking of leaving me because I was making him miserable. He said he could never leave me. I said I don’t want you to stay with me out of pity. He said I’m not I love you. We cried. We kissed. He moved his stuff out because the council people have seen his car parked in the driveway for a while so we could get in trouble. He’s found a flat for us to both live in in a nice area but I don’t know how to get out of the situation I’m in. I’m in debt with water bills, Rent, and maybe Tax. I’m hoping that in 3 weeks when I finish my apprenticeship, they will keep me on and I will be on minimum wage. But even then It will still be hard to clear the debts. I feel the lowest I’ve ever felt. My boyfriend is living back at home and comes back the odd night. I see him everyday. Maybe time apart will be good for us. We have been together just under one year and have survived a 10 day holiday and 6 months living in this shitty flat. It’s been so hard the last 6 months. I miss our relationship at the beginning. I hope it gets better but nothing seems to. I want to be happy.
Be good, sweet maid, and let who will be clever; Do noble things, not dream them, all day long: And so make life, death, and that vast for-ever One grand, sweet song.
Charles Kingsley (via getbackintime)
Re-blogging my own quote because this is the time it means something and I need to take notice.
After getting treated so bad at my job were I have been for just over a year now I have finally stood up to them and quit. I had an interview today and got the job. It’s not exactly what I wanted but nothing can be perfect and I guess it’s more experience. I hope I never come across people like that ever again. If I ever have my own shop (i wish) and I have to employ people, I will have so much respect for them and I will be the best boss they ever had and I would reward them and make them feel safe.